Month: June 2019

Sometimes I’m just so god damn tired.
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do or… when I should stop.
I just close my eyes, take a deep breath and then… I just keep going.
I really don’t understand why I’m doing it.
All I know is… that I cannot stop.

The dream was so beautiful.
I remember all the vibrant colours.
They were flowing into each other, intermingling.
It’s hard to see any shapes or forms.
What was I dreaming about?

I knew it was forbidden.
I knew it was nothing but trouble.
I knew that only despair was waiting for me.
I knew it all.
But nevertheless, I had to do it.

I have to admit, at some points, he is killing me.
Mostly my nerves.
A lot of the time, I’m wondering why I’m putting up with his shit.
But when I imagine a single day without him, it makes me irritated, almost sick.
And then I remember, that I love him.

You know, at some point you will have to explain this fuckery to me?

— Have you never heard about the phrase ‘no time to explain’?

Maybe you can’t explain right now but you will have time to explain once we’re done with these… Unicorns

— Nu-uh, not if the world goes down, I don’t ~

Excuse me, what did you just say?!

Life is exhausting and that is fine because it means, that you are alive.
You’re experiencing this exhaustion because you are living.
You did something that needed energy and you pulled through ’til the end to notice that you are tired.
Now turn around, look behind you and see what you did and be happy that you were able to do it!
Cause that is life and it is precious, so appreciate it, because once your time is up… there will only be me to appreciate it.

Lady Death

I know, it isn’t easy to listen to me and to understand what I’m saying.
You really need to understand though, because if you don’t, it could have terrible consequences.
You may be a prisoner but you aren’t locked inside a black box with a few breathing holes inside, no, you are locked in a golden cage and once you open your eyes, you will be able to see the shiny bars far far away.
You will see the bright sun, you will breathe the fresh air, you will feel the wind and you will hear the souls around you, only to realize that you are not the sole prisoner in this cage.
That, my dear, is life itself: Everything alive, breathing, living inside this cage called Earth and there is so much to explore in this very cage, so cherish this certainty, that you were given the chance to experience it all.

The Golden Lady